Yay!

I just turned in my last thing right now! No more bio ever, unless I decide to become like a nurse or something. Yeah, cause I still don't know what I want to do...but no more school for now!

Hmmm

How does it happen that everything manages to get done on time? It always seems like there is never going to be enough time to finish that to do list, but somehow it miraculously vanishes precisely when it's supposed to. Weird.

Yeah

I made a list of all the things I need to finish by Thursday, and it made me sad. Now if only I could get myself to spell the word "to" correctly I may get a decent grade on this reaction paper due tomorrow...

Weekend!

This weekend Molly and I watched a "Classic Christmas Movies" marathon on the family channel; by classic they meant claymation and it was awesome. There was a movie called Jack Frost, which was really about groundhog day, complete with a groundhog narrator who did a song and dance about the wonders of groundhog day. There was the movie Pinocchio's Christmas, which was just stupid. There was the movie called Rudolph's Shiny New Year in which Rudolph, yes the reindeer, had to go find Happy the New Year's baby because he ran away with a vulture called Eon the Terrible who didn't want to die. Without the baby new year, it would stay Dec. 31 forever. The best scene in the movie was when Rudolph was standing with Ben Franklin, a knight, and a caveman watching Happy play with the three bears from the Goldilocks story. Yes, that really happened. But the best movie of all was "Nestor the Long-Eared Christmas Donkey." It was awesome. Everyone made fun of Nestor because of his long ears, but then he helped Mary and Joseph at the nativity and now he's famous; and since it is claymation, Rudolph and Santa made an appearance at the end and it definitely snowed the whole movie.
Throughout this ordeal I taught Molly to make cables and now she's doing a really awesome hat that is cabled with the hat in green and the cables in blue. I also got a lot of work done on Courtney's wrap.

No Motivation

I'm so tired and have a lot to do, that I don't want to do, and Asher was in town today so I had to go see him. It was fun, but now I don't think I can be productive since I was in that mindset this morning and did not take advantage. I can't wait to go home, and all the usual comments. This time, though, I want to see my poor puppy who got attacked by great danes! He's fine, but I'm all worried about him now. Not to mention have nothing to do but play with the puppy. Well, this week it's forcing myself to finish stuff and find a pet sitter for Emma!

Where Does Time Go?

I feel like I've been somewhat productive today, but I haven't gotten anything done. I'm getting kinda worried about finishing Courtney's present by Christmas, so I guess I'll try to work on that now, but my other work will have to wait.

Freaky

So, I kind of thought that a good majority of modern society had realized that if you're really serious about getting married, you have the rest of your life to do it. Um, finish college first? Establish yourSELF in a job, hobbies, anything like that? Why must so many people rush off and get married at 19, 20, etc.? If I came home and said "hi parents, guess what? I'm getting married next week even though I probably can't find a job that would adequately pay my bills and I'm nowhere near being finished with college," they would look at me like I had lost my mind and would probably lock me in my room and nail the door shut until I regained my senses. It just really freaks me out that I'm going to start meeting people my age soon who are married. I mean it's not like I want to wait until I'm 40, but I cannot say that I am ready to be completely out on my own yet, which is one of the attributes I think of when I think of marriage - completely independent of parents, financially and maturely speaking - obviously there are some people who still need their parents' guidance in terms of "don't do that, that's stupid!" It just kind of feels to me like that's why there are so many failed marriages nowadays, because people get infatuated and rush into something that they weren't prepared for. Give it some time, honestly it can wait. It feels like the only reason to do it is a hormone cattle call which is not really a good reason to devote the rest of your life to another person. I thought that marrying young was something best left in the 1950's, but I guess I was wrong. How freaky is that?

Oh, and have you heard of birth control? Why is there pressure to have a baby right after the wedding? You're going to spend plenty of time with the kid, why not spend some alone time with the spouse first so that you don't end up married to someone you barely know when you're 50 and the kids have moved out? That seems like a really big decision to me. Especially to someone who's 20.

Stupid

Is there something about me that drives people away? I mean I know I've been tired and sick lately, but I really don't think I'm so dull that people wouldn't want to hang out with me. It just makes me sad that whenever I want to see anyone I have to call them and that no one calls me first. I thought I had all these good friends, but they all seem to have friends that come before me and all I'm left with is Emma. It really makes me anxious to graduate and start over somewhere, but then again, that's what I thought about college and look what happened.

So the weather pretty much sums up my mood right now. It's been storming and thundering and lightening. I'm sick of my cold and this semester. Kat's being moody for some reason and this has been going on for FOREVER! and it feels like one of my best friends doesn't like me anymore, so I feel like all my friends are leaving me and I can't make new ones fast enough to make up for losses. Sometimes I wish I could just say "I give up!" and start over somewhere else, even though I know that wouldn't make anything better. I guess I'm just stuck.