Stupid

Is there something about me that drives people away? I mean I know I've been tired and sick lately, but I really don't think I'm so dull that people wouldn't want to hang out with me. It just makes me sad that whenever I want to see anyone I have to call them and that no one calls me first. I thought I had all these good friends, but they all seem to have friends that come before me and all I'm left with is Emma. It really makes me anxious to graduate and start over somewhere, but then again, that's what I thought about college and look what happened.